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We shall not cease
from exploration, And the end of all our exploring, Will be to arrive where we started, And know the place for the first time. -T.S. Eliot
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| All the karma ever created by me from beginningless greed, anger, and delusion born through body, speech, and thought I now fully avow |
In other words, I acknowledge all that I've done. Here, we focus on negative actions, actions motivated by the three poisons: greed, anger, and delusion. We avow them, acknowledge them. We don't deny them or try to escape responsibility for what we've done, but we acknowledge our actions and their consequences. This acceptance is an opening process. We own what we've done and no longer blame others for the conditions of our lives. My teacher, Zen Master Dainin Katagiri, said that "repentance is the perfect openness of our hearts that allows us to hear the voice of the universe beyond the irritation of our consciousness."
This is the first step towards turning things around and trying to act positively from this moment on. After Formless Repentance, we recite the verse of the Triple Treasure and the Four Vows. We take refuge in Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha, and focus our lives in the Buddha Way. Then, we dedicate our lives to liberating all beings from suffering by reciting the Four Bodhisattva Vows:
| Beings are numberless; I vow to free them. Delusions are inexhaustible; I vow to end them. Dharma gates are boundless; I vow to enter them. Buddhas way is unsurpassable; I vow to realize it. |
Its important for us to say these things over and over, so we chant these verses every day. Like all ritual behavior, if we engage it and perform it again and again, it works on us on a deeper level, and we are eventually transformed by it.
Human life is incredibly deep and spacious. Through the practice of zazen, we come to know this depth intimately. We also come to know, however, that even though we live deeply, intimately, with all beings, this depth is manifested through our karmic lives, our day-to-day lives, which are shaped not only by actions moment-by-moment but also by all past actions.
In The Zen Teaching of Bodhidharma, the great Master who brought Zen to China writes about living out this karmic life at its most difficult times, when adversity strikes:
| When those who search for the Path encounter adversity,they should think to themselves, In countless ages gone by, I've turned from the essential to the trivial and wandered through all manner of existence, often angry without cause and guilty of numberless transgressions. Now,though I do no wrong, I'm punished by my past. Neither gods nor men can foresee when an evil deed will bear its fruit. I accept it with an open heart and without complaint of injustice. The sutras say,When you meet with adversity don't be upset, because it makes sense. |
The level of openness here is very high. How many of us can accept adversity in this way? We moan and groan, or blame others for our problems, frequenting striking out in anger and compounding our problems in the process! Bodhidharmas method, however, cuts off adversity at the root, by accepting it and not acting negatively, which only plants the seeds for more adversity in the future.
Bodhidharma then goes on to approach the matter from the other side:
| As mortals, were ruled by conditions, not ourselves. All the suffering and joy we experience depend on conditions. If we should be blessed by some great reward, such as fame or fortune, its the fruit of a seed planted by us in the past. When conditions change, it ends. Why delight in its existence? But while success and failure depend on conditions,the mind neither waxes nor wanes. Those who remain unmoved by the wind of joy silently follow the path. |
How we handle present conditions determines subsequent conditions. This is probably the most important aspect of the law of karma for us to remember. What we are now determines what we will be. If something negative happens to us, if, for example, we are in an accident or contract a serious illness, we need first to accept things and bear them with equanimity. This does not mean passivity, however. Some think that Buddhist practice is nothing but apathetic acceptance and withdrawal, but this is a misunderstanding. We need to accept and bear the circumstances of our lives with equanimity, but we strive for that because negative responses blaming, anger, or depression only compound our problems. They do not help. This doesn't mean we have to like our circumstances or not take any steps to ease or cure them.
However, when dealing with our own circumstances or when facing injustice, violence, or social and economic imbalance on a societal level, we need to act and encourage others to act in ways that alleviate our own suffering and that of all beings. We need to remember the ancient law of karma: positive actions produce positive results; negative actions produce negative results. These are truths we cannot escape.